“What makes humans different from other animals? We’re the only species on earth that observes Shark Week. Sharks don’t even observe Shark Week, but we do. For the same reason I can pick up this pencil, tell you it’s name is Steve and go like this
[breaks pencil]
and part of you dies just a little bit on the inside. Because people can connect with anything. We can sympathize with a pencil, we can forgive a shark, and we can give Ben Affleck an Academy Award for screenwriting. People can find the good in just about anything but themselves.
Jeff Winger (Community Pilot)
Whoo! It's been a while but what do you know, one Ze Frank video and I'm back to not absolutely hating everything about writing. I should really learn that whenever I start going off track I should just catch up on some of his awesome inspiration. Anyway, i'm not going to babble on about the past few weeks, I'm just going to jump back in, so pretend this little note never happened and go back up to the amazing quote in bold up top and then just read the paragraph below this one.
I'm always up for quoting Jeff Winger since he was always one of the most unexpectedly inspirational characters (Congratulations, by the way on season six of Community, it's an incredible show and deserves all the love #SIXSEASONSANDAMOVIE) However to be honest, I've never seen the pilot of this show that I love so much and I read this on Tumblr this morning and just fell in love all over again. Jeff was right on point, as usual, but this made me think about a lot of my own actions and my own attitude and it revealed a lot of crappy things that I probably share with most of the planet.
I consider myself as an incredibly self aware and accepting person, and physically, I really believe that I am because I realized that if I was ever going to help others I had to fix myself. Perhaps I focused on something like body image more than I should since it was the easiest thing to fix, however, In my quest to self love I missed a big chunk of the point. You see, if someone were to break my Black Widow cup, I would probably cry and resent whoever hurt the $0.89 piece of plastic but I often relish the feeling of my own skin breaking. I can love the things around me but honestly when it comes to my own life and health, I just quite literally couldn't care less. I used to think I was some sort of masochist but as I've gotten older I've found that it's less specific than that and simply intense apathy to my own well being. (My entire life is kinda apathetic but I'll get to that later.)
I wouldn't have a problem with this, seeing as it makes most situations seem rather pathetic, except for the fact that it (Like the quote points out) affirms a severe lack of love or passion for myself, and that's a problem. Not that I often care weather it's a problem, but at least I know it's a problem. I wish I knew how to fix it, how to care about my own well being, I sometimes think that perhaps I'm just missing a few of the pieces I need in order to be worth caring about. But I'm not sure. Lets just say that maybe in a month or two, I meet someone that I really like and she makes me really excited, will that make me care if anything happens to me? At what point in my life will the things around me become less important than my own benefit? I LITERALLY have no idea.
What I do know is that it's not just me, I know that we live in a world where forgetting to love yourself, is not only accepted but expected. Especially for women. Say what you will but women are the most self sacrificing BAMFs that will ever exist and lets face it, it's not our choice, we've been pushed and mutilated by society and religion and put through constant brainwashing. It starts when we're little girls and by the end of this cycle we become whatever we have to in order to survive, whoever and whatever that might be. Luckily that simply makes us harder to beat.
Granted this attitude applies to the opposite sex as well just not nearly as poignantly.
Point it, life is crap. So go out and treat yourself, look at yourself as your own favorite character. What do you want for that character? Do you want them to find love? Happiness? A three headed snake? What awesome things makes your own personal favorite character special and awesome? You know what? Write those questions down, and any more you would ask any character that you love and then answer them (And don't do the whole one word answer, answer them properly and with same amount of passion that you talk about your baby with) That's my assignment for my self and maybe it'll be neat for you to try as well.
Well, this has been really... Really.. ongoing? Yeah well, I'm out of practice and I would like to say that I'm back but I don't know, I could post again this evening and it might be in three weeks, either way this is a sign that I haven't COMPLETELY given up so whenever the next one is will be soon enough.
What I do know is that it's not just me, I know that we live in a world where forgetting to love yourself, is not only accepted but expected. Especially for women. Say what you will but women are the most self sacrificing BAMFs that will ever exist and lets face it, it's not our choice, we've been pushed and mutilated by society and religion and put through constant brainwashing. It starts when we're little girls and by the end of this cycle we become whatever we have to in order to survive, whoever and whatever that might be. Luckily that simply makes us harder to beat.
Granted this attitude applies to the opposite sex as well just not nearly as poignantly.
Point it, life is crap. So go out and treat yourself, look at yourself as your own favorite character. What do you want for that character? Do you want them to find love? Happiness? A three headed snake? What awesome things makes your own personal favorite character special and awesome? You know what? Write those questions down, and any more you would ask any character that you love and then answer them (And don't do the whole one word answer, answer them properly and with same amount of passion that you talk about your baby with) That's my assignment for my self and maybe it'll be neat for you to try as well.
Well, this has been really... Really.. ongoing? Yeah well, I'm out of practice and I would like to say that I'm back but I don't know, I could post again this evening and it might be in three weeks, either way this is a sign that I haven't COMPLETELY given up so whenever the next one is will be soon enough.
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