First Week of Summer

"But she and her furry friends

Took down the queen bee and her men.

And that's how the story goes,

The story of the beast with those four dirty paws."

Of Monsters and Men, Dirty Paws

Yes! First week of this summer which I have repeatedly said will be the greatest summer yet, I sure hope that I'm right because I have actually said that to a lot of people, including, but not limited to, my buddy on Tumblr. My confidence may have been feigned more so than I would be proud of, however, I still hold to the belief that this will be a wonderful summer. A summer where things are worked out and barriers are crossed. I believe that this is the summer when friendships will be strengthened and broken and love will become more tangible than ever. I have no proof for this conviction, putting me with the legions of arrogant believers in this world, however, I've kept specifics out so there's something to start with, eh? A prediction with generalizations pertaining to your life can always be achieved since it's your attitude that can be altered and changed, it's not always easy but it's possible and that's a start, one that I'm willing to work with, today, and for the rest of my life. I made this prediction last week before the end of school on a Thursday night when I proudly announced to Simon that "We have nothing to fear ! Because this is going to be the best summer yet!" However, by the time Monday came around, both of us had lost our zealous attitude and instead became admittedly afraid of the days ahead.

I'm terrible with time but I believe that was on a Monday when we realized that we were less confident than previously predicted and now, here we are on Sunday and I'm left analyzing the past few days, most of which I can't even really remember. I never really liked Sunday... Shops are all closed and it's the end of another week.. But lets see how many leaps of faith I can accomplish every Sunday when I track the progress of this oh so amazing summer on this blog.

In all honesty, this week was could be described as a disappointment from my point of view and although I woke up this morning with a grim outlook on the future based on the last few days, I have accepted the usefulness of this dull minded week.If there's a problem, you fix it. If there's a problem but you don't know what that problem is, you first find the problem and then you fix it.  That's exactly why this week will end up being useful in the long run, its evidence that there is a problem but more importantly it can be used to find out what that problem is, not much time, granted but just enough to see a pattern, I believe. Next week will be vital and I can look forward to my favorite stage of repair, the experimentation stage! Yay! I get to make little changes and see how they effect my attitude, its a fun and hands on stage that not only keeps me busy but makes it apparent that I am moving forward in my goals. And I'll make those changes based on the events if this week and I'll make lists and paragraphs and graphs in order to start on a path of self improvement.

I do hope that this post isn't to personal and boring for anyone reading because for me, it will probably end up being one of my favorite posts. This week has been a disappointment, yes, however even though situations cannot always be fixed or changed, attitude can and this post is a great opportunity for me to analyze my own grim attitude left over from this week and perhaps begin to turn into a positive one. One that will set the course for repair and more importunately for the smiles that should be pasted all over my face because this is a wonderful life and should be treated at such. The fact that I had one week that made it blatantly obvious that things need to change should not affect my attitude towards the future, that is simply taking something useful and letting it bring me down for absolutely no reason. A positive attitude can defeat all of life's obstacles; This I truly believe.

And now, for the biggest mystery of this post of which I'm sure you're all wondering about; Why did I choose that quote at the top? The answer is... I don't really know.. I just really like that song and it's the one I've been listening to... I encourage everyone to listen it since it's awesome. :)