Progress

Hey! Anyway, I know that I talk a lot about the fact that when it comes to life.. I'm not doing so great. And that's just the truth, I mean by every stretch of the word I'm a failure, for some reason I've found a way to be okay with that. However, above a lot, I believe that it's seriously important to take a step back and actually take a moment to acknowledge the progress you've made in life. No matter how small that progress is, it's all terribly necessary to living a happy life. Not to brag, but despite everything wrong with my ability to handle life, I consider myself a bit of an expert on living a happy life.. No perhaps happy isn't the right word.. A positive life. I'm awesome at that. Understanding that progress and growth are unique and individual things that can't be measured by anyone but yourself. It's something that you have to examine and make a judgement for yourself, forgetting all pre-conceived notions of success or happiness.

Progress is a slow process and is a constantly working force, pushing us forward at our own pace. But just for fun, and since we are constantly moving into the future, we can look back and see how far we've come, perhaps even predict where you're going or, more importantly, where you want to go. In all reality, it's a bit like an adjustment, a turn left or right on the road of life. We can aim ourselves where we want to go especially after we've figured out both how fast we're moving and the most obvious direction we're headed.

I'm certainly not the person whom I predicted I would be at this point in my life, that person was a lot more capable and spontaneous and fun, also she was a straight A student headed for the sky. I missed that only by a couple million miles, however, even though I'm not even close to that dream human being that I wanted to be when i was ten doesn't mean that the girl I've become isn't interesting or unique in life. Forgetting all that and calculating exactly what I am and how I've improved I can say now that the girl I am now is complicated, tough, and positive, also She's a writer that's headed to just above the sea level where I can dive in life whenever I want to.

Yes, I have a better work ethic when it comes to my writing and I've found ways to connect with people as best as I can, I'm complicated and slightly kooky in my ways. It's not what I expected, perhaps what I should have predicted, however, it's what I am and the greatest thing about knowing all these things is that no matter who I am right now, I will be someone slightly different tomorrow. And that's why life is worth living, it's that predictable unpredictability of our progress and growth from day to day. I quite like the idea that I'm not stuck with the person I am now, I will have me forever along with lots of new pieces and parts and I'm always excited to see how they fit.

Honestly the reason this was on my mind is because I was watching Ze Frank's video on growth and progress and as always, he says it much better than I. I'll post that instead of a GIF because everyone needs Ze Frank in their lives. :)