Walking Blind

If you asked me what happened yesterday I probably couldn't tell you much about it, I mean I got a few things out of the day but with my mind in a funk (It happens every now and again) chances are my description would be vague at best. I wouldn't even say that I actually remember the day very much, even though, for me, the day was quite eventful, however If you asked me, I would most likely tell you the little things that I remember such as...

1. We went to a tattoo parlor 
2. I got mad at the tattoo guy for being slow 
3. We had Chinese food
4. I dropped the cologne 
5. And I bought a "9" button for fifty billion dollars 

By the end of that eventful day, despite the fact that we were having a decent time, I was ready to go home and go to sleep. I've said before that some days you just don't win and yesterday was one of those days. I tried early on to save it but it wasn't happening so I had to make a decision, one that tends to be seriously difficult but the truth is, it's very straightforward. I knew that I wasn't going to win, I had already lost and I could have spent the whole day in bed but instead I let Simon drag me out of the house and go to several different and new venues. Just because the worlds blurry and dull through your eyes doesn't mean that through the film there's not still a gorgeous and exiting world. That's something that is severely important to remember even though it can be quite painful to understand that no matter what you do or where you go, the world is still going to be dull and far away. Luckily, you still have the notion that the world is still moving and just because your mind isn't involved doesn't mean that you shouldn't be able to experience whats left of your vision.

A great example of this, although perhaps childish, would be Eeyore from Winnie the Pooh. Although I never saw exactly what was happening when I was a child, I relate clearly these days and understand the point that was being made throughout Eeyore's arc. The donkey was basically always depressed and suffered from the classic symptoms of depression which can often make you distant and cold from the people around you, especially if they don't understand, however, despite the fact that he was depressed Eeyore's friends took him on adventures anyway. They didn't expect him to be happy or get excited, they simply treated him with respect and took him along knowing full well that the adventures weren't going to fix him. It's important to understand how important this bit of information is, Eeyore experienced the same grand adventures that the rest of them experienced, even he didn't see it happen through the same lens as them, he was still there; an absolutely beautiful concept.

And much like how the rest of the animals on the hundred acre wood took Eeyore along without expectations or judgement, I am very lucky to have Simon, someone who not only understands but brings me along in the same selfless way. 

Basically, just because I really can't remember the full extent of my experiences yesterday, I am grateful and appreciative that I had them. :)